wicked smut goddess (gracerene) wrote,
wicked smut goddess

For kerrilee75: Back to You (Draco/Harry, PG)

Title: Back to You
Author: gracerene
Fandom: Harry Potter
Pairing: Draco/Harry, background James/Teddy, past Ginny/Harry & Draco/Astoria
Rating: PG
Word Count: ~1,100
Content/Warnings: established relationship, weddings, epilogue-compliant, a sad lack of smut
Summary: Weddings are always an emotional affair.
Notes: Lovely kerrilee75! I had a slightly different plan for your birthday fic. Originally, it was also supposed to double as a 50 Reasons bonus!ficlet, but alas, the sex just didn't happen. I know, I was shocked too! I hope you enjoy this little thing anyway, and I hope you have a very happy birthday, lovely! :D

This fic takes place about five years after the end of All of the Time. You don't need to read that fic or any of the others in the Are You Mine? series to understand this one, but it's a lot more fun if you've read the others. :D

Thanks a ton to capitu & birdsofshore for looking this one over for me! <3

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"Crying again?"

Harry scoffed, but he didn't bother defending himself any more vigorously than that. His eyes were becoming a little damp. He couldn't help it. It wasn't every day he saw his firstborn and his godson get married, and to one another no less. James and Teddy were out on the dance floor now, the both of them doing some kind of ridiculous and energetic dance and looking at one another like they couldn't believe their luck. Harry's eyes began to prickle again, and his voice was hoarse as he murmured, "They just look so happy."

"Yes, they do," Draco replied, his tone low and fond.

They continued watching them dance together in comfortable silence, Draco's body a warm and welcome presence at Harry's elbow. The day had been perfect, and happiness filled Harry's chest with a heated glow. It wasn't until the music turned slow and sweet, and Teddy pulled James in for a soft, romantic sway, that Draco spoke again.

"Have you ever thought about doing it again?" He spoke quietly, and his tone was far-off and pensive.

"Doing what?" Harry replied absently.

"Getting married."

Harry's heart came to a sudden stop at Draco's words, before picking back up again at a breakneck speed. His palms were suddenly clammy, his shirt collar too tight. The shock of the unexpected question was like being hit with a full Body-Bind Curse, and he sat there staring at James and Teddy as he tried to sort his racing thoughts.

Truth be told, when he and Ginny split up, he'd never had any thought to getting remarried. He figured he'd had his shot; maybe marriage just wasn't for him. He was over fifty now, and even though he and Draco had been together for nearly five years, they'd never once discussed marriage. Perhaps he'd been a little too hasty in assuming it wasn't in the cards for them. He swallowed roughly and finally managed to choke out, "Have you?"

Draco hummed. Harry watched him from the corner of his eye as Draco picked up his wineglass and swished the pale liquid around absently.

Draco watched the swirling liquid for a long moment before finally speaking. "After Astoria and I finally separated, I swore to myself that I'd never marry again."

"Oh." Harry wasn't sure why he felt a sudden, painful pang shoot through him at the loss of possibility. He wanted to turn and face Draco, but he found he couldn't drag his eyes away from James and Teddy, laughing and twirling not ten feet away.

"You remember what it was like for me back when we were kids, don't you?" Draco continued, swirling the wine around his glass more vigorously than before. "Marriage was a prison. It was a sentence passed down from my parents and from wizarding society, telling me that if I wanted to have even a chance of redeeming myself and my family, I needed to get married, have an heir, and become a productive member of society." He laughed, a sharp, bitter sound, and Harry's heart ached for him, and for the boys they'd been back then, the choices they'd both felt they had to make. "Astoria was my best friend, but marrying her...I had to give up something of myself, had to squeeze and contort myself into a box that I wasn't meant to fit in. I couldn't imagine putting myself through that again, even with somebody I loved." Draco sighed, his brow furrowed. "How could I do that to somebody I cared for? How could I reduce our relationship to some archaic business transaction that symbolised a life I was all but forced into?" He shrugged. "I couldn't see the appeal."

Harry felt the heavy chill begin to dissipate. He hadn't realised how much he wanted to marry Draco until he'd brought it up, but he couldn't fault Draco's reasoning. Harry loved Draco, and he knew Draco loved him, too. Everything else was just window dressing. "I understand."

"No, I don't think you do."

Harry turned to look at him then. Draco was dressed in deep purple dress robes that clung to his fine form like he was born in them. Night was beginning to fall outside behind the Manor, but the yard and gardens were well lit with hundreds of floating candles and dancing fairies. The faint streaks of silver in Draco's pale hair—almost imperceptible in the daylight—caught the flickering lights, making Draco look even more distinguished than usual. His cheeks were flushed—from the wine or the conversation, Harry didn't know—and his eyes were a deep, fathomless grey that Harry knew from experience was easy to get lost in. Merlin, Harry wanted him. Harry wanted Draco more and more each day, wanted him more than he thought it was ever possible to want another person. Marriage or not, Harry planned on spending every day of the rest of his life by Draco's side.

He spent so long admiring Draco, that he'd forgotten Draco's previous statement until Draco cleared his throat.


Draco smiled and laughed. "Merlin, the way you look at me. It's…" He shook his head, his expression turning abruptly serious, his eyes shining in the candlelight. "That's what I was trying to say just now. I never understood it before, why somebody would willingly tie themselves to another person for the rest of their lives, how marriage could ever be something more than a practicality. I get it now." He reached forward and grabbed Harry's hands in his own, and Harry's throat grew tight with sudden emotion. "So, to answer your earlier question, yes. I have thought about remarrying. You."

Thrilling, terrifying, exhilarating euphoria spiraled through Harry, sweeping away the last of the disappointment and catapulting him to giddy new heights. He was dizzy from the magnitude of it all, and he was grateful he was sitting down. He cleared his throat, attempting to compose himself.

"Shall we get married, then?" Harry said in as casual a tone as he could manage.

Draco shrugged, all faux nonchalance. "If you'd like"

Harry couldn't help it, he laughed, loud and bright and fucking incandescently happy. He grabbed the front of Draco's robes and pulled Harry in for a heart-stopping kiss that made his toes curl and his pulse pound.

They were both breathing heavily when Harry pulled away, but Harry didn't go far. He pressed his forehead to Draco's, letting the familiar scent of Draco fill him up as a ecstatic grin spread across his face. When he finally spoke, his voice was low and breathy and filled with possibility and promise.

"Yeah, I'd like."
Tags: are you mine?, birthdays, era: epilogue compliant, era: post-hogwarts, established relationship, fandom: harry potter, gift!fic, my fanfic, no repost, pairing type: slash, pairing: draco/harry, rating: pg
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